I know. It’s been a good, hot minute. Where in the heck have I been?! Well quite a few life changes have happened over the last two months.
For starters, JD and I are expecting our first baby boy in May! We are beyond excited to start our family, and I can’t wait to get hold my sweet boy! Next, I’ve started a new job teaching, which has been quite an unexpected change for me. Life has definitely taken a turn in the past few months!
I must say, my hat is off to all bloggers and YouTubers out there who work through fashion or beauty blogging/vlogging in the first trimester of pregnancy. It kicked my butt! I was nauseated, tired, and unmotivated about 100% of the time. I wanted to continue posting as frequently as I had before, but I just couldn’t find the motivation or desire to bring myself to take fashion photos with all the changes happening to my body. I wasn’t necessarily showing already, but I was sick and not exercising and just all around not well, so that makes you feel less than beautiful.
One of the worst parts of my first trimester was prenatal depression. I hear so many people talk about postnatal depression, but I never really knew prenatal depression existed until I went through it myself. To begin with, I am normally a really happy person who has never really struggled with depression, so for me to have such down days was incredibly out of the ordinary. Some days I would question what I was even doing with my life and feel like a complete failure. I didn’t really know how to combat it or what to do to make it better. Poor JD encouraged me as much as he could and was there to listen to me as I cried and worked out my frustrations. I’m very grateful for all of his support as I went through the crazy hormone changes. Thankfully, I only had days and not weeks of struggling, and I feel so much more myself in the second trimester. For all of you ladies out there who are struggling with prenatal depression, know that you are not alone, and you’re not a terrible person. In those moments, lean on those who love you the most. I promise it does get better. I found that declaring the truth of who I am and the things I was grateful for every day helped to boost my mood and set my mind on the right track. There is so much power in our words and thought processes. Commit yourself to take control of what you can and realize you are stronger.
All in all, I know these are merely excuses and women have pushed through much more than that, but the reality is, I didn’t and that’s ok. I’m here now, and I’m ready to get back in the swing of things full force. Tabitha Faith is back and better than ever. I have so many things planned for the blog this year including a resurgence of my YouTube channel. Look for great things to come!
Happy New Year to all! Now get out there and set goals for 2017 to challenge yourself to achieve and learn more than you did in 2016. You are in charge of your own life, no matter the circumstances that come your way. If there’s one thing I learned in 2016, it’s that I can’t control everything that happens to me, but I can control my reactions to them. Let go of the things that have been holding you back from chasing your dreams. Live in the moment, and plan for the future.
I love you all!